I don't even know how or where to begin this long, dark journey. I know that the numbness I'm feeling now is based in denial, and that it will fade. I'll welcome the pain because the sooner I start to feel this hole, the sooner I can start to heal the edges of it.
Philip, I don't know why you're gone, but you are. You left Sophie without a father, mom without a son and me without you, my only sibling, my better half. Oh wait, I'm YOUR better half, you're my OTHER half, as we used to say. It's been so long since I've gotten to spend any time with you and now I'll never get the chance to again. I will hold tight to the memories of that cross country road trip we made almost a year ago. It was the first time in a while and the last time ever that you and I got to just be brother and sister, stupid and silly, happy and carefree. I love you, man. I'll try to remember the good times. I'll try my best to tell your daughter who you are, so she can know you even though she won't remember you. I'll try my best to be happy and live my life. That's all I can promise you now.
I'll miss you every day. I love you.
Philip, I don't know why you're gone, but you are. You left Sophie without a father, mom without a son and me without you, my only sibling, my better half. Oh wait, I'm YOUR better half, you're my OTHER half, as we used to say. It's been so long since I've gotten to spend any time with you and now I'll never get the chance to again. I will hold tight to the memories of that cross country road trip we made almost a year ago. It was the first time in a while and the last time ever that you and I got to just be brother and sister, stupid and silly, happy and carefree. I love you, man. I'll try to remember the good times. I'll try my best to tell your daughter who you are, so she can know you even though she won't remember you. I'll try my best to be happy and live my life. That's all I can promise you now.
I'll miss you every day. I love you.
<3 <3
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